Clarity

Ok.. so I havent posted anything since the first post.. I apologize... my life in the last few weeks has been chaotic to say the least.. HOWEVER.. I was blessed with an opportunity for my children and I to take a week long getaway...AHHHH!! It was great... I had 2500 miles of traveling to think about how life is and how I want to deal with it. My kids are wonderful and they helped me remember that love and attention and acknowledgement are important in our everday lives not what I could give them materialy..( is that a word?).. anyway.. Pain was not a part of that week long getaway.. although it did creep up I was able to not let it consume me. ... One thing that stayed with me in my heart and mind while we traveled is a quote I had written down a few weeks before we left..."Your deepest affliction has been the source of your greatest beauty and vice versa" WOW... that is so true in my life and on my trip I started to see how true it is within the people I love so much. The struggle comes when we dont embrace that..So what do I do with that? I know this much... at the very least when I am in the midst of my AFFLICTION.. I MUST search for the beauty in it... and remember that God is right there in that beauty AND affliction. ..God was definately in the beauty of my time with my kids and now that we are back I must try to focus on that beauty.. because RIGHT NOW back in Colorado and my everday life..I am surrounded by my afflictions and must endure to search for the beauty....

Starting out....

So I decided in my never ending chaotic life to start blogging.. I tried writing in a journal but quickly found that as much as I am on a computer it would be best for be to blog. I have had many thoughts about blogging but was too afraid to take the leap..so here I am. This last year for me has been overwhelming to say the least. My life has changed more than I could have ever imagined. My purpose in starting this blog is to express myself in words, thoughts and feelings. I find that when I am able to communicate, it lessens the pain. So I am here to share my life and hopefully have the honor to have others share their life with me. I know I am not the only one out there who struggles with life, love, god and all the others things in this realm that sneak up on us. I will apologize now if my blogs make no sense.. I plan to release...release.. release and if that doesnt make sense sometimes.. its ok... I hope for a healing experience.